Monster I’ve Become

I don’t see the world through brilliant eyes, I can’t see past today.
Yesterday nearly took my life, I wanna explain.
But my excuses seem to be wearing thin
How long can I live this way? How long can I stray?

Maybe if I read between the lines I could reason my life,
If I could keep from feeling guilty I could be alright.
Turn away, hope nobody sees, is this really how its supposed to be?
Still I smear Your blood with the monster I’ve become.

I fake a smile, pretend like life’s okay, just the cost of fitting in
It almost took my life, yesterday, to keep my friends.
I sort of thought, by now, I’d feel better
Tomorrow, I’ll be fine. I’ll just close my eyes.

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…And I bleed…
And I smear, Your blood.

(Chorus)
In my shame I run, from the monster I’ve become.